Unfair to God

 Unfair to God

I have been unfair to God. I’ve allowed
others, those who share a relationship with God,
to define and limit my relationship with God.
This is unfair to God. For, have I not

had friends, who have friends
who are no friends of mine? Have there
not been lovers, who have had lovers,
whether prior to or thereafter me,
who share not even a shadow of me? Do I hold it against
these friends for those friends; these lovers
for those lovers? No.
I do not.
In truth, I do not even consider it,
considerably. Perhaps I should.
My dance with my friends and lovers
is privately personal.

Yet, when it comes to God, I partially discount this perspective.
Instead, I give weighted credence to noisemakers of judgment,
the (self-proclaimed) pious ones who crow and boast
of their commitment to the One of Infinite Names.
Why do I choose to include any of their sounds? They are clanging,
and not a part of my equation. They neither add nor multiply
abundance to my friendship, my love affair, with God.

For this I am sorry.
For this I have been unfair to God.

7/10/2014