June 30 - July 1 2014
As I sat in a pub
last night, I was reflecting on a realization that was brought to my
attention during a journey I had in Amsterdam two years ago. I was
watching the film, "Almost Famous" in my hotel room. There is this
powerful scene in the movie, where one of the central characters,
William Miller (played by Michael Angarano), is an aspiring, 15 year old
writer for the Rolling Stone magazine. He is miles from home on a tour
bus, (writing an article), with the musicians and crew of a fictional
band called Stillwater. He feels disconnected and homesick. After a
night where the band almost splits apart, William, sitting next to the
adored Penny Lane (played by the lovely Kate Hudson), turns toward her,
in a somewhat panicked state, and says, "I have to go home." Penny, with
the wisdom of the Buddha, flashes her fingers before William's eyes,
and says, "You are home."
As I finished that
last paragraph, I re-watched the aforementioned scene. Again, it aroused
me to tears. You are home. Never were truer words spoken. Home is where
we are, for we are with ourselves wherever we travel. Both on my trip
to Amsterdam and presently on this trip to York, this insight is apt to
my current thoughts. I remind myself of this truth, especially when I am
traveling alone.
Sitting in the pub, I started
to write in one of my notebooks. I've been working on an essay about
death. It's been quite an arduous task. I spend more time looking
around, trying to find the right words, than I actually do in writing on
paper. But then again, does not life hold the same veracity? Is not the
struggle for brilliance, insight, or growth seemingly always greater
than the outcome itself?
While surveying the
room, I noticed, at a distance, the general pattern of the wallpaper
that covered all three walls. Nothing brilliant about it (from a
distance), but I was in the mood to inspect it further, closer. When I
got close I was laughably stunned by the detailed art that contributed
to the larger composition. It was sketches of randy behavior; tiny
bodies and body parts were engaged in multiple acts of copulation and/or
nudity. It was rather brilliantly disguised in the patterned wallpaper.
The paper clothed the wall with nudity.
Sometimes
the overall experience of this life appears drab, at best. We forget or
ignore the fine details that give richness to the pattern. Days blend
into days, weeks into weeks, years into years, until we are dead. How
much more flushed would our lives be if we could, at times, appreciate
the smaller composites that inflame our minutes and hours?
There
is a balance between seeing the whole and inspecting the sum of its
part. The key word, though, is balance. Art consistently reminds me of
this weighted game. Last year in Prague, I had the opposite experience
to the one that I enjoyed last night. I was in an art museum, too close
to a painting I was viewing. It looked like mumble jumble of modern art.
On my second trip, however, that same painting that disagreed with my
senses upon first view penetrated me with a different interpretation. I
stood at a greater distance, and saw the painting from a new
perspective. I realized that I was too close the first time around. At
close proximity, the details looked blurry and incoherent, almost
senseless. On my revisit to that piece, two facts became clear: it was
an Impressionistic piece, (not modern art), and the overall painting was
gorged with ecstasy and pleasure. This was quite pleasurable to my
senses.
The personal lessons from both my
experiences above are clear: With one hand, I need to find pleasure and
stimulation in the small details of my life, as I live it right now; the
other hand must hold the panoramic lens that captures the entirety of
my journey, not just the jumbled noise within confined spaces.
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